なるべく考えまいとは思っていたのだが、自覚をしてしまうと途端に侘しいような気持ちにもなってくる。

tbd

I had tried to avoid thinking that as much as possible but as soon as I faced it I started to feel miserable.

あなたがいなくなったら、この世は本当に侘びしくなるわ。

tbd

What a lonely world it would be with you away!